I'm still listening to the instrumental piece of music that is the Titanic Suite (since posting about it a few days back). It's actually playing even as I type right now. I feel like running now. I feel like running to no end until I can finally escape this foolishness that is myself. I want to just live in the Spirit and forget about my flesh, but I can't because I'm stuck in this body. I want to live free of this temptation that constantly pokes at me. Having to resist is painful, it's exhausting, it's heartbreaking. I don't want to stay in this spot, I want to MOVE. I want to MOVE FORWARD into His light. I want to constantly walk in His light and leave the darkness behind. I want to die to myself.
I want my perspective to change. I want to see things the way He sees it, not the way I do. I want to focus on His goodness and grace and might. I know there's nothing better, but I don't want to just know it in my mind, I want to know it in my spirit.
